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So I know it's been a while, but a lot has gone down in the last couple weeks. I left my boyfriend of 4½ years, which was really hard, mostly cause I wasn't sure how he would re-act. I didn't know. He would drink so much and would sometimes get a violent behavior... not towards me, all the time, but he would get this look in his eyes and crush things in his hands and look at me, or have his eyes shut cause something he hears or sees sets him off... just a weird situation. I have a new man in my life... and he is just amazing. He's someone I work with, and have been friends with for a while.. like around the holidays we started talking and getting to know eachother on a personal level and not just on a work level. It was just nice to have someone else to talk to besides my ex, who will from now of be referred to as Dumbass.
Anyway, one day I was having a bad day, Dumbass and I had just had a fight and I was just needing to vent, Cres (short for Cresencio...) just happened to be in the room while I talked to Amanda and Bianca. Earlier that morning I said to myself "I'm just never going to be good enough for him..." and I started crying. Cres met me outside the break room and asked if there was anything he could do... I told him that there was more to it than what he heard, so I told him I would send him a message over facebook. Basically, I told him how Dumbass had been comparing me to the 5'1" Princess for years and I was finally sick of it. Cres has been there for a while, even when she worked there so he knows her, and he said "You two are nothing alike... you shouldn't feel not good enough cause to me you're perfect," I about died, it was just so sweet and unexpected. I never felt pretty enough, skinny enough, "fun" enough or anything. I felt like my family wasn't good enough and Houston even told me they would never be good enough. Yeah... he's an asshole. After I left Dumbass and started to move my stuff out and move in with Hailey, Cres and I started to stay after work some nights just to get to know each other a little better... we ended up just... liking each other, and I don't know how it happened, but it just did. He's... just amazing. Just yesterday, we both opened and he had stayed over since he closed and had to open the next morning... he lives an hour away, so that's a bitch of a drive to and from everyday let alone closing and having to open the next day. I had my allergies attack and I just felt bad...  I started to get a fever so I told him that when I got back home I would just leave the front door unlocked.. I apparently passed out and didn't realize it til I woke up and saw him standing in the door way, he asked how I was feeling and I just... felt like crap. I just rolled onto my stomach and just went "Ugh," haha... he crawled in bed with me and stayed with me til Hailey and Raleigh got back so I wouldn't by myself.  Anyway... he's pretty much amazing... He got a new job, he'll be in a warehouse doing stuff... driving fork lifts and what not... he wants me to live with him, which I'm totally for. I mean I love Hailey and Raleigh, but they are planning a wedding and will soon be newly weds, and I don't want to be in the way... you know what I mean? I'm just hoping that this relationship works out.. not that I'm running out of time to find anyone, I just like having that someone that cares about me and thinks of me as their everything.. and not just an object.

A project I'm going to be working on... if you would like to participate, please email me at crimsonyx23@gmail.com

The new blog. :)

Charlie- Now you can see all my pictures as I post them. :)
The Canon 60D camera...

The battery is charging right now... but new pictures will be coming!
It has been brought to my attention that the Pledge of Allegiance has been taken out of schools. There was talk and speculation about it for a while but they ACTUALLY took it out, because they're afraid of "offending" anyone. Ok, first things first, if you are offended by the Pledge, then here's an idea... don't say it. If we changed everything that we either historically put into the country whether it be the Pledge, or "In God We Trust" printed on all of our currency, just to not offend anyone... then pretty soon, anything and everything will be gone.
Say what you will, but I believe that this awesome, yet deteriorating by the minute, country that we live in was founded on Christian principles. I don't understand how someone can say that it wasn't when we have "In God We Trust" on our money and "One nation under God" in our Pledge to the AMERICAN FLAG and various scriptures written on monuments in DC.

Thomas Jefferson said:
“Of all the systems of morality, ancient or modern which have come under my observation, none appears to me so pure as that of Jesus....I am a real Christian, that is to say, a disciple of the doctrines of Jesus."

James Madison said:
"Religion is the basis and Foundation of Government." June 20, 1785
So I came home for a week and showed up at my old store of Walgreens to get some medication filled... I bumped into the Hallmark lady, Delores. She asked me if I had heard about Maddy, and I told her all I knew was that she had some kind of cancer. Maddy is Debra Butler's grand daughter. I worked with Debra at Walgreens in the cosmetics dept. She is like another mom figure. She's moved back to Houston.

Delores then continued to tell me that she has a rare form of childhood brain cancer. They found it because she fell one day.. and then later that day within an hour or so she fell two other times. The doctors diagnosed her with Glioblastoma Multiforme. It's inoperable and the doctors are giving her 8 months to live. They will start her on chemo and radiation to get rid of any of it that they can. The kind of cancer it is (Glioblastoma Multiforme) only happens to people of 60 years or older, Maddy is only 9..

She does have a website where people can donate anything they can to..I hope all of you believe in the power of prayer and I was hoping you could add this to your prayer chain. She is much too young and it makes me cry just talking about it.

Adrian, Maddy's dad, can be contacted through this email address.

thank you..

This is Maddie...
So.. all my loyal photography followers, I have a page in my website for testimonials, where you say what you think of my pictures, your experience with me etc...

Just as a viewer to my stuff I would looooove to have your thoughts and things like that added to my website. :)
Every month Walgreens has a promotional item up at the front register, this month it is W Brownies and Warhead ice pops. Also this month we are trying to help raise awareness to Cancer. All kind of Cancer. So anything that you donate at your local Walgreens to the American Cancer Society will go straight to them. Our store's goal is $1500.00 and I am determined to meet that, even if it's by myself. So to help boost sells, since after a couple weeks people are going to get annoyed with me asking them every ten seconds if they'd like to donate a dollar, I got in contact with a few of my music buddies and they and their management have decided to help me in my little project. This is my P. Sawyer move of the year. I am making a small EP for The American Cancer Society on my own, nothing really special, but it is a good way to get people to donate money. I'm going to make it "Donate $3 and you get a CD" instead of $1.
So far on the list, I have:

Of The Two of Us - Reese ft. Wendy Colonna
Never Gonna Stop - Vickie Natale
Call on Me - Ty Snelson
Thank You - MoZella
Hello Sunshine - Elliott Fikes
Don't Go - Cory Yeager

"Don't Go" by Cory Yeager is in memory of his mother Paula Yeager who lost her battle to breast cancer in 2005. I am just waiting on a couple of tracks to get this completely done and run the idea by my boss. Once he sees all the effort I put into it, I'm hoping he will be for it.
i will be deleting or something this journal... soon, i will be using blogspot... so for those of you who have facebook.. add me. i won't be on here much. my facebook page is facebook.com/whitneyrae23 it's also posted on my profile.

I probably won't be posting much here....

Spink Studio is having a contest!! Check it out!!
So my photography website is finally up and running.


I have music on there with the permission FROM the artists. I have "Love is Something" by MoZella (she is so cool to talk to,) "!" and "People" by Kina Grannis (the youtube girl... she's awesome too) and of course "Of the Two of Us" by Reese. I'm going to try to get Kelly Clarkson to give me the "ok," thank God for Twitter, she has a day off so she is answering all kinds of questions today. Hopefully she'll answer mine and it would be awesome!

Anyway, drop by it and let me know what you think. :)
I didn't take these pictures, but I did make the slideshow.


Today is the 1 year mark that JonRyan passed away...

SAY - John Mayer

I wasn't really close with him, but I do know people who were... and it makes me hurt inside that some people are going through like what I did with Kaylee... I made a slideshow to the song "Say" by John Mayer which since J-Ry died, this song has made me think of him every single time...